Early Life and Family Struggles

Born in the back of an ambulance in Manhattan during the early 1990s, Josh’s life began amidst chaos. His family moved frequently between shelters and housing projects.

His mother, a strict yet functional addict, adopted several children from friends and relatives struggling with drug addiction. This formed a household of eight in a four-bedroom apartment, supported by welfare and supplemented by his mother’s involvement in drug dealing.

Josh’s exposure to the street life began early. Despite his mother’s efforts to maintain structure, the prevalence of crack cocaine in their environment influenced his path. By age 13, Josh had entered the streets, selling crack cocaine. His initial encounters with law enforcement were terrifying, and though his mother remained unaware, his actions led to early arrests and exposure to the criminal justice system.

Entry into Crime and Arrests

Josh’s first arrest came as a young teenager when he was caught selling drugs. This experience introduced him to juvenile detention centers, but rather than deterring him, it became a gateway to more serious crimes. At 16, Josh committed his first robbery, escalating from drug dealing to violent theft. His criminal activities were driven by the fast money and the allure of street respect.

In 2006, he was arrested for robbery alongside his cousin, marking his first time on Rikers Island. Josh described the atmosphere of Rikers as chaotic and violent, with constant fights, riots, and a pervasive gang culture. He was immediately thrust into a survivalist environment where alliances and conflicts dictated daily life.

Life on Rikers Island

Josh’s accounts of Rikers Island paint a vivid picture of a brutal institution. He detailed how inmates were dehumanized, subjected to violent beatings by correctional officers, and coerced into a culture of extortion. He recalled being jumped by 30 inmates in a cell and witnessing the pervasive violence orchestrated by both inmates and staff. The prison system at the time allowed inmates to wear their own clothes, which fueled theft, stabbings, and gang disputes.

Josh described the power struggles within the facility, including battles over phones, which were considered lifelines to the outside world. His survival depended on adapting to the harsh environment, often through acts of violence or strategic alliances. Despite the danger, his time on Rikers Island failed to reform him. Instead, it solidified his role in the criminal underworld.

Progression to State Prison

After multiple arrests and escalating charges, Josh was sentenced to state prison. There, he faced even more structured gang politics and eventually joined the Bloods, succumbing to peer pressure. Joining the gang brought new problems, including involvement in inter-gang rivalries. He was caught in riots, targeted for his affiliations, and subjected to violence both as a victim and participant.

In one instance, Josh was involved in a prison riot that resulted in him being sentenced to two years in solitary confinement. He described this period as torturous, marked by isolation, deprivation, and psychological strain. Smoking marijuana was one of the few ways he coped with the monotony and mental challenges of solitary confinement.

Turning Point and Release

Josh’s turning point came after his release in 2010. Though initially returning to the streets and selling drugs, he began to question his choices following a series of arrests, including an indictment in 2018. This case, which involved multiple co-defendants in a crack cocaine distribution ring, marked a significant moment of self-reflection. He described crying every day in jail, overwhelmed by the realization of how his actions had derailed his life.

A New Chapter: Redemption and Family

The birth of Josh’s daughters served as a catalyst for change. Recognizing the destructive impact of his choices, he resolved to leave the streets behind. He took up various jobs, including construction, and focused on being a present father and husband. Josh now uses his experiences to educate others, emphasizing the harsh realities of prison life and the importance of avoiding the criminal path.

Conclusion: Lessons from the Streets

Josh’s story is one of survival, transformation, and redemption. Despite a turbulent upbringing and years spent in the criminal justice system, he emerged determined to break the cycle. Through his YouTube channel, “Hell on Rikers Island,” he shares his experiences to deter others from following a similar path. His journey underscores the resilience of the human spirit and the possibility of change even after a lifetime of adversity.